Everything is looking up, really, even if we do have a big move on the horizon and the transmission alert signal came on in the car yesterday. I keep thinking about our new house, and thinking already about where to put alllll our books, and how we'll actually be able to eat in our kitchen. Also, we have a sweet little front porch where we can put a nice table and eat there too. Yay. Of course, I can't actually remember if we have a dishwasher. That's the only thing that's a little cloudy, but hey. We've been without one now for several months, so I guess we'll make do if we don't.
One bad thing – I can't swing going to the last two weddings of the year. It's a crying shame – literally, I wanted to cry a bit when I finally admitted it to myself – but two more weddings, after three (four?) others (one of which was ours, and I'm still paying off), is just an impossibility. Especially when they are both in the Boston area, but two weeks apart! If it was one week apart, MAYBE I could have swung it. Maybe. It still would have been tough though.
Another bad thing – I really am going to have to review how much time I spend listening/reading to news, because I am starting to get a little too anxious and angry about the whole thing. Yesterday I actually cried on the way home, listening to NPR interview "regular folk" about who they are planning to vote for. Did anyone listen to this story? They took a racially mixed group – most of the white people planned on voting for McCain, while all the people of (various) color chose Obama. One of the white ladies said "There is just something about that Obama I don't trust". Also cited that it was because he was Muslim. When asked if she had heard that had been totally refuted, she said "I still believe he is". PLEASE, SOMEONE, tell me why people can't use analytical and logical thought to draw conclusions? Why are people racist? These are rhetorical questions. I know it is because they are stupid.
And then, an interview with Laura Bush, where she extolled the virtues of community involvement and service. When the interviewer asked her about the rather snarky comments regarding "community organizers" at the RNC last week, she replied "Well, I don't know what a community organizer IS. I'm talking about people who are working with children in their community to keep them off the street." Um….right.
Anyway, I was just so frustrated by the stupidity of it all, and how MUCH I HATE Sarah Palin – like Lillet says, she represents the WORST kind of feminism to me, not to mention she's plain bat-shit crazy – and how the Republican machine is so dirty and full of lying, manipulating sacks of shit that I just couldn't keep the tears back. Mind you, I am not even an ardent Obama-raman! I just can't stand spin. Fuck all of them.
When the tears were under control, the car lurched and the transmission alert signal came on. Uh-oh. I mean, I don't expect much from a $900 car, but it couldn't have been worse timing. I did take it in this morning, and while it is probably on its last legs, it's still safe to drive, so at least that's some good news.
But I'm still so happy! Promise!
The biggest debate in our life right now has to do with our little students. It's only been 10 days or so, but we're growing rather fond of them. David and I are considering whether we want to offer ourselves as family for the rest of the school year. It's a tough decision. It's been a big lifestyle change for a couple weeks. It adds a bit to our food costs. We have to be marginally responsible most of the time (this is not a bad thing). We'd probably have to be careful about how often we stumble home from Lakewood Landing or the Wine Therapist (also, not a bad thing). On the other hand, they are making friends fast – already going to their first party tonight – and I'm thinking they will be out and about more than in, so they will be in our hair MUCH less. Also, we'll be much closer to their high school, and they can walk or bike easy and we won't have to take them. It's sort of fun showing them around and they are charming as anything. I just don't know. I can't decide. I hate to uproot them in a month, but I also am looking forward to our new married life together in our new home. Hrm. But I also think even if they stay, May will be here before we know it, and then they will leave, and we will cry. What do you guys think?
