I really don't have time for more.

We had the internest hooked up this evening at the new place so I think more regular updates are imminent. On the other hand, my life is just a whirlwind. I am not used to it, and frankly not handling it well. I'm used to distinct boundaries on Me Time, and generally great expanses of it. I do not do well with too many obligations, to be frank.

The move + the girls + a very busy time at work has put way too much on my mental plate. I had been pretty gung-ho about having a baby, but this experience has changed everything. Frankly, I don't think I will handle it well at all. Not to say we won't have one – but I think more and more it will be ONE and I will wait as long as I can. I do NOT do well with a.) creatures NEEDING me; and b.) the constant patience it requires; and c.) the time constraints it puts on Davey's & my time together. We haven't had sex in about ten days and I start getting exceedingly grumpy when it has been that long.

I have also found it too difficult to do anything for myself. I got my hair done but that's about all I have managed in the past two months. Finally I made a booking for a bikini wax tomorrow. That's been a billion years. David says he digs playing 70s pornstars but I'm thinking I would like a little something more modern.

Anyway, I think the move part is really, honestly, almost over. We have to paint the old kitchen and do up the girls' room at the new house, but those are the only two major projects. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

For all friends I have woefully neglected, either online or off, please forgive me. I think once the end of November rolls around I will be a new person. My brain really will not allow for much more at this stage.

The kitchen is organized and cozy. Gus & Tugboat are here and I will move Ernie & Ronnie the Bear tomorrow. That will make it more home too. I seriously have a vision of what life will look like by this time next month and that is what is driving me though this very busy time.

Someone give me a Klonopin and an E at the end of November and I'll be fine.