How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
It is really hard for me to believe I am 36 years old. It just does not seem possible that it has been that long since Amsterdam, or college, or even high school, though high school has definitely started to fade into soft, fuzzy, angsty generalizations for me.
Recently I have been feeling older than I usually do; frustrated and annoyed with my body changes and its decrease in recovery rate – recovery of anything, from a too-late night, to a longer than normal run. I recover, of course, but not at the same rate I used to. I hate it.
That aside, my heart is energetic and youthful, and I would probably peg myself around 30 years old if I did not know me. Fortunately, genetics & water & faithful sunscreen usage & moisturizing has made the skin retain some youthful pallor, which I find has increased since I cut out the drinking the past couple weeks.
Of course, I wouldn't trade anything for the wisdom those extra six years has afforded me, so while I FEEL thirty, I would never be anything other than exactly what I am.
That said, I am a pretty young 36 – easily distracted, ready to party, afraid of commitment, often tongue-tied and twisted, regularly beset by worries that people do not like me. Which I am much too old for. When do I grow out of that stuff?
How old do you think you would be? Younger? Older? Why?
Jeezy pete, Ash. If you’d asked me 6 months ago how old I felt, I think I’d probably say 30 also. But since the girls came, I have been feeling every single one of my 35 years. And I feel like my face has aged… but then that might just be the sleep deprivation.
Yeah, I imagine children throw this question into an entirely different realm!
When are you in Dallas next?
We’ll be there May 20-23… That’s a Thursday to Sunday, I think. Would LOVE to see you, I’ll see if my mom can babysit & Lauren & I will come down & have a night out?
That would be rad!
i feel older because i am a boring old fogey and i feel much jaded and wizened by the ways of the world, or whatever. but also feel young as i feel inexperienced and hopeful. hmm…interesting question!
really i came here to say that you have like, the best skin of anyone i know!!
Ah. I am going to be 35 and I tell you what: I hate it. I’ve noticed things about my hair and my skin that make me feel silly for caring about my skin and my hair. Though I really used to love both and so did other people-they’d always say something about the red hair.
I cut out all alcohol about mid-January and that has made a world of difference. I feel more lighthearted and energetic. I’ve lost 10 pounds. It’s probably in the dirty laundry. The older I get the longer things sit.
Overall I emotionally feel what 40 looks like but I look like 30. I physically feel like I did at 28 but I have the butt of 35.